Category: Personal Topics

An Open Letter to Those Who Have Hurt Me

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Dear you,

You know who you are.

Each and every one of you has made me stronger, so thank you.

Thank you for being the kinds of friends who need friends. Thank you for breaking my heart in ways I cannot wish on any other person. Thank you for tearing me down when I am weak so that I may find the strength to bring myself back as a better and stronger person.

I do not hate you. I could never hate any of the people that have hurt me because they have made me who I am today. You have made me who I am today and I will always be grateful for that.

May your life be as great as any other. May you find the peace you are looking for. May someone come and make your life so wonderful that you never act towards anyone the way you’ve acted towards me.

I will never forget how you’ve affected my life, so thank you once again for making me who I am.

I am strong because you have made me weak. I am happier because you have made me sad. I am smarter because you have made me seem dumb. I am better because you have forced me to overcome these things and grow as a person.

I can only hope for you all of the happiness in the world.

Stay Golden,

Emily

First Day in My Dorm

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College. Whenever I was younger this word terrified me. This word means going away from home and experiencing life without your parents..

Today was my first day moved in to the beautiful campus of High Point University, and tbh it is one of the best days I’ve had in a long time.

My roommate and I actually get along really well, my boyfriend is going to the same school, and I can just tell this campus is going to mean a lot to me.

It’s honestly been a great day, but as I lay here in my bed awaiting sleep I cannot help but cry. I’m sad because I miss my parents and I am scared of what is to come.

I’m so happy in my relationship and I’m terrified something is going to mess it up. I’m so happy with my life right now, and I’m scared that my grades are going to be less that ideal and I’m going to want to go home. I’m scared that I’ll get too stressed and want to quit..

I know it’s part of the transition that everyone feels, but it stinks.

All in all, great first day and I hope there are many more.

Stay golden,

Emily

Relationships.. The Truth

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I’ve done a lot of thinking…

Dating is all just a big ball of risks and rewards and no matter how hard we try to ignore it, our past changes everything.

I mean how can we possibly take the risk of ever falling in love again if our past leads us to heartbreak after heartbreak and cheaters after cheaters? This is a major risk. The reward of opening your heart again could be the best relationship you have ever had.

I don’t understand people. I really don’t. How could you possibly cheat on someone who gives you the world?

Apparently its simple for most… You just do. You do it because its the easy way out. It’s the way to avoid fighting for the one you are dating. It’s the way to make yourself completely unstoppable. I mean how can you get your own heart broken if you are the one doing the breaking?

Now that being said, I have never cheated on anyone before, and I do not plan to. I have been cheated on and it’s an awful experience.

It’s kinda funny actually how cruel it is for someone to cheat. Not only are you ruining the person you are in a relationship with, but you are making it so difficult for them to see the rewards over the risk of being hurt again.

If all you have ever experienced is hurt, why would you risk it for the girl/guy you like? Why would they be any different? This is a risk that you are scared to face again. Scared to be broken once more in fear you cannot be fixed. But… what if this person is the one that will truly do anything for you?

That’s where the reward comes in. If you do let this person in, it could be great. You could fall head over heels in love, and they could do the same. You could get married and have a wonderful life together.

My advice to you is that you give it your all no matter what. If it feels like it’s “too good to be true” don’t be scared to try. Sure you could get hurt, but how can you experience the love of your life if you aren’t willing to risk that.

Stay Golden,

Emily

As H.S. Graduation Approaches…

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I am very aware of how close my graduation is, and honestly I can’t wait. Sure I’ll miss my wonderful friends, but I can’t wait to leave the one place that has caused me the most heartache in my life.

BULLIES.

Throughout my high school career I was bullied. For the first 3 years people would make comments about how skinny I am. They would tell me that I need to gain weight as if I could actually help the fact that I have a high metabolism. They would be really cruel.

Also, Sophomore year I was bullied the worst by people I considered my friends. They made a fake YouTube account and made really mean comments about me on my channel. We found out who it was and I was so hurt. I even considered moving schools.

CLASSES

My classes were crazy hard. Granted, I put the stress on myself by taking AP and Honors classes, but my classes were not what I expected in H.S.

I expected to have classes that prepared me for College. Most of my college didn’t prepare me. Also, I had endless homework because I tried really hard to get my GPA.

I ended up being 10th in my class, but I still hated high school. I cannot wait to get out, but my friends will be missed.

Stay golden,

Emily

Shy is NOT who I am

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All my life I have been known as the shy girl. The quiet girl that sits in class copying down notes and only talking to my close friends. People use this character trait to define me as a person. However, being shy is not everything about who I am.

I am Determined to Reach for the Stars. What I mean by this is that I will do whatever it takes to reach my goals and dreams. I am currently 10th in my Senior Class, and I am graduating with honors. I got accepted to my dream college and was offered a scholarship.

I am Kind and Empathetic. I care a lot about others. When people cry, I cry. I try to help people the best I can and hope for the best. I almost care about others too much for my own good.

I am Intelligent and Hard-Working. I have worked very hard in school to learn the topics that I needed to learn. I have good study skills and a good work ethic.

I am Fun. There is nothing I love more than hanging out with my friends whether it be jamming out in my car to our favorite songs or playing laser tag at the arcade. These are some of my favorite things to do as well as going to the movies, dancing, singing, and sleepovers.

I am ME. You cannot define me as one thing in particular. You can’t even define me as all of the things I have listed. In order to define me, you must first realize that I am so much more than meets the eye.

Don’t let your actions or personality traits define you.

Stay Golden,

Emily